About the Book

In this exceptionally moving and soul-searching memoir, Fernando Alcántar recounts his incredible journey from poor Catholic boy on the dusty streets of Mexico to globetrotting missionary and high-profile Christian leader in the United States—where he eventually left his celebrated life behind to advocate for the liberating power of reason and equality. With heart-wrenching honesty, he shares stories of trauma, tragedy, prejudice, uncertainty, survival, and, ultimately, discovery. In the process, he gives a voice to thousands who are hiding in the shadows, afraid to publicly question their religious, cultural, or sexual identity for fear of isolation and retaliation. You will discover that his is not simply a Mexican story or an American story, a heterosexual's story or a homosexual's story, a Christian's story or an atheist's story. Rather, his is a universal story—one uniquely about and for our times. 

About the Author


ISBN: 978-1634310482 (paperback)

SRP: $15.95

Page count: 224 pages

Trim size: 6 x 9

Pub date: November 2015

Ebook availability: Yes

Audiobook availability: Forthcoming

“This is as much an adventure and coming-of-age story as it is a coming-out story (both gay and atheist). It is fast-paced, earthy, and sensitive, taking readers into a fascinating cultural account and series of events that keeps you reading even though you know how it ends. Most noteworthy, in my opinion, is that it clearly shows how sincere and fervent religious belief erodes when logic and clear thinking creep in.  Beware, Christian fundamentalists—this book is dangerous to your beliefs,

but is a secular blessing to the rest of us.”

Linda LaScola, cofounder of The Clergy Project and author with Daniel C. Dennett

of Caught in the Pulpit: Leaving Belief Behind

"Alcántar provides a very compelling and gripping personal narrative that is both a coming-of-age story and the story of a man who is transformed by the power of thought. This book is a page turner that . . . is a must read for all those who believe or have believed in the power of God and faith."

—David Tamayo, Founder, Hispanic American Freethinkers, Inc.


Fernando Alcántar is a former leader of the Foursquare denomination in Mexico and senior coordinator of North American Partnerships at Azusa Pacific University, where he oversaw hundreds of churches in Mexico and helped to mobilize thousands of missionaries a year from all over the United States and Canada. He later served as director of leadership development for young people for the California-Pacific Annual Conference of the United Methodist Church. He is now a gay atheist activist, spreading a message of tolerance, introspection, and understanding. He lives in Stroudsburg, Pennsylvania.